I hate crying

I really wish I had someone to talk to about all of this.  I’m moving to DC in less than a week.  I’m so excited to go, but the one person I really need support from is super bummed about me moving.  I understand that he’s not all that excited about it because we’ll be 1800 miles apart and might not see each other for six months, but I really need to hear from someone that it will be okay.  And we’ll be able to make it work.  I need to know from someone who has been in this situation before. 

And it’s not like our goals are way different from each other in terms of commitment issues.  Neither of us wants to get married any time soon, nor do we think we’re anywhere near close to being ready for that type of responsibility.  We both want - and need - to work on our careers.  

I’m struggling to figure out how I’d respond if the roles were reversed.  I’d like to think I would be super supportive of him and what he needs to do.  

I don’t want to lose something so important to me just because I’m stubborn.  Refusing one regret seems to be creating another.  

This just makes me depressed about moving.  But I know I can’t stay after this much hype.  

In semi-related news, I’m leaving on the five year anniversary of my grandma’s death.  coincidence?