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Jul 21st

Don't go wasting your emotion

Emily and I had a date tonight. We ate Thai food and witnessed the amazing-ness that is Mamma Mia. I still have qualms about Pierce Brosnan singing (without his shirt, something I’ve not seen since James Bond and I think I would have liked it to remain that way), but overall it was everything we hoped for and more. We followed it up by listening to the soundtrack purchased before we saw...

Jul 20th

lonely

I really miss Matt. It’s not that I’ve not been missing him before this weekend, but there’s been a whole lot of coupling up within my group of friends out here and it just sucks that my boyfriend is 1800 miles away. I want my someone to hold hands with, cuddle with, to kiss goodnight. I think I’m a little jealous. There’s a lot more to this story, but...

Jul 13th

limbo

I’m really confused right now. I’m in DC, the city I’ve dreamed of for most of my life and things just aren’t working out. Part of me wants to return to Kansas City, part of me wants to stay here. There is a really cool internship in KC that I just found out about and I’m currently applying for and I think I could be very happy there. But at the same time,...

Jul 9th

Much Better

false alarm? well, not really. But we decided that this is the opportunity to evaluate our relationship and what we want. needless to say, I’m super relieved. we’re back on track. And I love my friends. They are super supportive and even sometimes cute about it. Ways to distract me so I wouldn’t spend a lot of time alone crying. They’re awesome.

Jul 7th

The end?

two years, ten months and six days. I’m sad, I’m hurting and I’m really confused. It’s really hard to comprehend how someone you love and trust so much can hurt you this badly. I want to wake up in the morning and this be a bad dream.

Jul 6th

Jul 4th

I took take a lot of things for granted.

Jul 2nd

Stream of Consciousness

I’m in DC I miss Matt I miss KC I want the job at MOCSA I’m so excited to be in DC I’m glad I came out, even with the horrid homesickness the first two days. I really wish everyone could come out here with me. I miss my family. I miss Matt.

Jun 30th

much better

Today was much better than yesterday. Yesterday was rough. Real rough. But, I had my Goodwill interview and it was okay. I don’t know that I’m the right person for that job and I’m okay with that. I’ll keep looking for something closer in the district, and probably still send out a few resumes to places in KC, and see where that gets me. Budget-wise, I can probably...

Jun 25th

I'm here!

And I already want to go home. How ridiculous is that? I’m not good at telling people goodbye, especially when I have no idea when I’ll see them again. Or, being a horrible friend and not telling my best friend goodbye at all. How shitty of a person am I? I didn’t say goodbye to my best friend and had some lame excuse about not being able to handle any more goodbyes. I...

Jun 24th

Leaving on a Jet Plane

And I don’t know when I’ll be back again. I’m super cranky. And cry-y. And stressed. Tomorrow afternoon Mom and I’ll head to KC to spend the night and get up way before the crack of dawn on Tuesday to make my 6:30 am flight to DC. I’m trying real hard to be excited. In a way I wish I could be happy staying in Kansas City. But I would always regret not going....

Jun 23rd

jessicacoen: Andrew 1: Knock knock. New York: Who’s there? Andrew 1: 9/11 New York: 9/11 who? Andrew 1: You said you’d never forget. See? It’s not too soon anymore. Great news. [via] ahahahahaha

Jun 19th

I hate crying

I really wish I had someone to talk to about all of this. I’m moving to DC in less than a week. I’m so excited to go, but the one person I really need support from is super bummed about me moving. I understand that he’s not all that excited about it because we’ll be 1800 miles apart and might not see each other for six months, but I really need to hear from someone that...

Jun 18th

In one week I’ll be on my way. I’m getting super excited. I’m a little nervous because I’ve not heard back from Goodwill yet, but I’m sure it will come through. I’m still submitting resumes to different places everyday and if nothing else, my trip will be a sweet summer vacation. While it will be expensive and unproductive if that happens, that’s the...

Jun 17th

For safekeeping

I love this article. It was published a while ago, but I want to keep a copy of it. Misogyny I Won’t Miss Marie Cocco - The Washington Post Thursday, May 15, 2008; Page A15 As the Democratic nomination contest slouches toward a close, it’s time to take stock of what I will not miss. I will not miss seeing advertisements for T-shirts that bear the slogan “Bros before...

Jun 14th

Jun 13th

I bought a plane ticket

Well, my dad just bought me a plane ticket. Thanks Dad! June 24, I’ll be headed to DC. Oh God. I’m not sure if this will be for a job-hunting visit or a move, but I’m on my way. I’m hoping to have an on-site interview with Goodwill to supplement the phone interview(s) I’ve had. I can’t believe this is really happening. I was talking to Matt about it a little while ago and I started...

Jun 13th

more

More tornados tonight, and they’re not done yet. Good grief.

Jun 13th

sirens

And the tornado sirens just went off here in Topeka. But according to the TV the city of Topeka is not in a tornado warning. At least the sirens work - unlike a few weeks ago.

Jun 12th

I refuse to use a Wizard of Oz reference

But there are tornados like crazy in Kansas right now. One of the tv stations in Topeka has a camera on top of a building at K-State and they had it going when the tornado just went through. Seriously, it was like three minutes ago. We’re sitting in Topeka watching, live, the tornado in Manhattan. Holy shit.

Jun 12th

Bummer

After a day-long funk, today turned out to be alright. This morning I got an email from a friend about a job I applied for in DC saying someone else got the job. ugh. But, the same friend followed up that email with a couple more tonight reassuring me that something will come through and there are several people at the organization that are rooting for me. I sure hope so, I need all the...

Jun 11th

Watch

Hilarious. dangurewitch: Facebook Quote Buddha I wrote this new one from CHTV. Justin Tyler and Gabrus are hilarious, and Vinny’s cinematography is epic. Enjoy, share & digg!

Jun 10th

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Rockfest

I really need to start taking more pictures. I had my camera in my purse all day yesterday, but didn’t take many pictures. Although, 50,000 people is really hard to comprehend, even with a picture. Overall, Rockfest was great. I didn’t get drunk or sunburnt or dehydrated. I got to spend some great quality time with Matt and some of his favorite people. I saw several great rock...

Jun 9th

Spring Cleaning

I’m cleaning a bunch of stuff out of my room so that I can move out for real soon, and I feel as though I’ve just relived high school. I found notes, notebooks, pictures and a whole lot of crap I never remembered having in the first place. It’s weird to see what I thought was so important just a few years ago, but I could without hesitation throw into the recycle bin today. ...

Jun 6th

It's June

By God, by the end of this month I will be in DC.

Jun 4th

“I’m a granola-head.”

– My Dad. He was trying to make fun of macs, but failed. miserably.

Jun 3rd

When I grow up

I’ve decided there are a few things I would like to spend my disposable income on once I’m in DC - if I can afford them 1. Drum lessons. I’ve always wanted to learn how to play the drums and I figure I may as well do it while I’m still young. And can still have dreams of making it big in a rock band. 2. Yoga classes. Yoga is probably the best PE class ever. Part of that...

Jun 2nd

The End

Here it is, the last time I’ll be in my first house. Farewell 322 Jewell, I’ll always remember you.

May 29th

Whew

In the last week I’ve: had two phone interviews for jobs in DC took a load of stuff from Liberty to Topeka watched the entire first season of 30 Rock went camping with the family, thunderstorms and sunburning were both present laughed learned how to back up a trailer put together my ticket stub scrapbook read two excellent booksTomorrow mom, dad and Matt are coming up to help me move...

May 28th

Summertime

Camping this weekend. I cannot wait to sit in the sun all day, read a lot and not worry about job searching. I probably shouldn’t, but I’m going to take the weekend off from worrying about jobs/life/etc. I’m going to go to the lake (maybe swim? It might be too cold), cook over a fire, eat smores, enjoy the inevitible thunderstorms and sleep in a tent. I will come home...

May 21st

Old people concerts

In a number of respects, I was born in the wrong decade. Or, I just hang out with my parents way way to much. Either way, I’ve seen three old bands in 4 days. Tuesday night was on purpose. Dad bought tickets to see The Police and Elvis Costello. They appeared in the opposite order, but they were awesome. And, we sat eight, yes eight, rows from Sting. He’s old now though, so he...

May 17th

May 16th

It's been over a week.

I don’t have a job or a place to live, but I’m feeling much better about life. I’ve got some contacts in DC and I’m continuing to find more. Instead of moving out to DC directly, I think - unless something comes through in the next couple of weeks - I’m going to go out for two weeks at the beginning of June and see what I can do in that time. At the end of two...

May 12th

I want to be a waterslide test pilot.

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May 8th

The Apple Club

I’m typing this on my brand spankin new Macbook. It’s black, beautiful and pretty much the coolest thing I’ve ever owned. Oh yeah, and I graduated Saturday. I need to find a job, pronto.

May 5th

Graduation

In just over twelve hours, I will be walking around the Quad for the final time, down to the gym to listen to semi-boring speeches, collecting my diploma holder and probably crying a little as we sing the school song. How’d I become so sentimental about William Jewell? Hopefully my next post will be from my graduation present: a brand new apple laptop!

May 3rd

The good kid

I’m not even sure how to explain how I feel right now. I’ve been pretty certain for a while that no one from my mom’s side of the family was going to come to my graduation. I thought I’d come to terms with that. Today’s events showed me otherwise. My cousin was shot. He’s currently recovering from surgery. I guess I’m feeling really selfish and...

Apr 29th

eek!

7 days. That is all.

Apr 26th

This is the week

…where I realize that I’m graduating soon. In the next seven days I will turn in my senior research project, present said project at Undergraduate Colloquium on Thursday, attend my last Honors Convocation on Thursday evening and realize that I’ve done this for four years. There are two more issues of the Monitor. Yesterday was my last Liberty Symphony Orchestra Concert. ...

Apr 14th

Whoa

I got back from Washington DC yesterday. I want to be back already. I’ve got some serious prospects in terms of jobs, so that’s pretty awesome. A chance to do some freelancing with the UM Reporter and then freelancing this summer moving into a grant funded position with the Alban Institute. I really hope the Alban job works out, I so badly want to be in DC already. I got to spend...

Apr 8th

update

I’ve been to way too many funerals in my life. I’m now 22. 36 days until graduation. I’m ready to be done, but I have so much to do before then. DC next week. 3 times in 6 months. Awesome. I need a job, like whoa. Hopefully that will come next week while in DC. Beak ‘em Hawks.

Mar 29th

experience

I’ve been asked to “emcee” my cousin’s funeral. Not officiate, because I’m not allowed to do that (yet?) but to pray, introduce people and pray again. And then again at the cemetery. Yikes. Too bad my experience running funerals is on the humerous side and not the practical side. I think my family would come unglued if I offered a responsive reading of,...

Mar 19th

My last Spring Break

So far, it’s been so-so. I came home Friday night. We left early Saturday morning to go to Omaha. After driving through some snow and stopping a few times for the kids to pee, we made it to the zoo. It was cold. But pretty cool all the same. Lots of cool animals, but far too many snakes. The albino aligator is no longer there. The shark tank, however, is freaking awesome. Sharks,...

Mar 19th

eek!

I turn 22 in 10 days. I’m definitely a Kansan. Last night when I was returning to campus after Yoga, I saw a professor walking his dog and thought to myself, “I really don’t like that guy.” It wasn’t because of all the awful things he’s done to students or the horrible things he’s said, but because he was wearing an OU sweatshirt. Spring Break in...

Mar 14th

Boring

It’s Friday. I’ve been in my pajamas since I got home from school at 2:30. Sadly, the power was out for a while, so I was not productive at all in terms of homework. So, I took a long nap. Now, it’s Friday night and I’ve cooked dinner, cleaned the kitchen, working on my laundry, cleaned my room (under the bed and everything!), watched Beetlejuice, searched for jobs,...

Mar 8th

Countdowns

22nd Birthday- 20 days Graduation - 62 days wow In other news, I got bored today and dyed my hair again. This time it’s pretty red. Think my mom’s hair red. yeah.

Mar 3rd

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I said “vagina motherfuckers” in front of my dad last night. It was awesome.

Mar 1st